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3 Aug

I haven’t written in a long while — which makes me feel bad because there’s SO much going on in my life and i want to write it all down before i forget it forever. then i end up telling a story where i cant remember what really happened. See this is why couples end up with different stories 20 years later! he thinks theyve been married 23 years and she insists its 25 (although I would lean more towards believing a woman since were more peculiar about important dates.)

But where oh where is the time when youre a single full-time working mother?? I barely have time to eat sometimes!

Anyway, I want to document something special about Layla…

She will be 6 months old soon, and she is the most amazing little human being i have ever met. It feels wonderful that I get to see her every day if only for a few hours. It was hard leaving her with my mom, and not getting to see her all day. At first I felt mad at the universe and thought, “I cant even raise my own damn daughter.” I was just pissed that other moms get to see there babies all day, and unfortunately I cant because I have to work. But I came to terms with it. I accept it now and Im just happy I have someone very special to come home to. Plus I know Layla is well taken care of with my mom and she really LOVES my mom — she always get sooooo happy when she hears my moms voice.

Shes lost some of her baby fat since i started pumping. I realized i was over producing and over feeding her.  I think she also stretched out a little. I know babies get cuter as they get bigger and I dont know if its just motherly love but i just think Layla is gorgeous. her little face just takes my breath away. especially in the mornings when i wake up next to her and shes sleeping like a little diva.

she gets a ton of attention every time we go out somewhere — people just go nuts over her! strangers just seem to fall in love with her. my brother actually told me –get this— “I dont know how you did it but you have the cutest baby in the world.” well thanks for the insult/compliment haha!

My dad just loves her to pieces. shes his pride and joy.

Layla can now turn over rapidly, has two bottom teeth, and loves grasping objects.  She’s a very bright girl. When she wants to be carried, she doesnt cry — she fake coughs. being her mom, i know when shes really coughing and when shes not. she sounds like a really bad actress and makes these face expressions as if she hopes im buying it. when i lean over her and pretend to worry, she stops and then fake coughs a little more. As soon as i carry her I notice a little smile on her face and i chuckle a little, to which she just full out starts laughing like she knows what she did!

Her hair has grown so much i actually had to cut it. I kept it in a little plastic bag. Im not very sentimental to things like hair or teeth but for some reason I just couldnt throw away her hair! ugh. Im officially a mom i guess. *snorts

Can you believe megan fox is preggo again????! what!!! you hear of all these other stars waiting until theyre 30 and 40 to finally have children but not megan fox. I guess shes not as vain as she seems huh?

Im actually excited about my friends getting pregnant now! I couldnt care less before I was a mom. I mean, sure it was cool “someone was going to have a baby”. BUT NOW its like “OMYGOD!!! YOURE PREGNANT!!! LOL!!!” *tears

why am i so emotional about that? sheesh i weird myself out.

Im still breastfeeding, even though Ive gotten plugged ducts twice and mastitis once. hey im the first in my family to breastfeed so im learning as i go. ive learned though that pure cranberry juice from a health store is a breast feeding mothers best friend 🙂 drink that at the first signs of a plugged duct and youll be just fine.

Oh and layla has tried biting me while i nurse her but i just push her face against my boob for a second so she cant breath and she releases her chompers right away. problem solved.

I have to say the first few months of being a new mom are HARD but its finally getting to the point where i am just THRILLED to be a mom.



I Apologize

26 Jun

To the people who are not blind:

I apologize for not plucking my eyebrows frequently enough. Id get them waxed but I dont even have time for that..and maybe I’d like to save those $10.

I apologize for wearing a dress and having baby hairs on my legs–I sincerely hope I was too far away from you to notice.

I apologize for wearing sandals and not painting my toe nails–I realize I look like an earthy hippie who should be wearing Birkenstocks.

I apologize for having messy hair days and some no-make up days. I feel for you, I do.

I apologize If I dont always smell good–hopefully my body spray and thin mints do the trick. If not, please step away slowly. Ill pretend I dont notice.

I apologize If what I wear doesnt always match–like wearing a navy blue tank top with a black and white button down (whaaat? was I half asleep when I picked that to wear?! um, actually yes I was!)

I DONT APOLOGIZE for spending my small amount of free time cuddling and singing to my little girl.

I dont apologize for playing on the floor with her, and tickling her tummy, enjoying the heck out of her chubby cheeks and thighs. gazing at her loving eyes, and enjoying her innocent giggles.

Sometimes there are better things in life for which I must sacrifice my time for.


A Ring For My Mother

28 May

Im not dead but my phone is. I accidentally dropped it this weekend…it cracked, the screen doesn’t work, therefore I am declaring my phone dead….it took horrible pictures. I will not miss it.


Life has been CRAZY busy lately…..I love blogging, I just wish I had more time—seriously!

Just wanted to make a quick post to say that baby Layla has started alot of first’s in the past few days!! The one that really gets me is yesterdays–she started to giggle!!!! OH MY GOD!!!! it was ahh-DO-rable…*loud sigh. I love my baby =) Shes 3.5 months now.

This weekend is our first family reunion at my parents house (yes, we’ve never had one before. like ever.) my dad said we should have one before someone dies. eh. thats a good reason.

There is SO much were doing to our house to get it in tip top shape, as well as the landscaping. Its stressful but I think everything will look nice by this saturday. fingers crossed.

my dad is going to surprise my mom with a ring this saturday. She lost her wedding ring, and has wanted a new one for a while now. so he wants to get her one. I had to be sneaky and figure out her ring size. she doesnt suspect anything as of yet. I also want to go with my dad to help pick it out, since my mom is very picky about that kind of stuff.

I got this idea…..hopefully my dad likes it. We buy a broom, wrap it up in a box, and have my mom open it at the reunion in front of all our family. As soon as she sees what it is, her face will be priceless, but then my dad will come in with the real present, and everyone will laugh, and “ooh” and “ahh” over the ring.  what do you think?

Ok, well I gotta run and get ready for work, because me and my little one have to make that mula! hopefully Ill be able to blog again soon because I have words dying to pour outta me! who needs a shrink when you have a blog right?? haha, talk to you soon.


my progress 3.5 weeks after having Layla. I dont diet or exercise, but I do breastfeed.


Layla doing tummy time on my desk.


she is SUCH a grandpas girl 😉


this is how we work sometimes (no joke)


my happy girl!!


the love of my life.


Weekend Outfit

29 Apr

I thought I would start doing some outfit of the day posts on here. Ill be posting what Im wearing, where its from, and if I can remember Ill put the prices as well. Most of the things I wear are not expensive. I looooove sales and bargains!! If I can get an added discount off an already discounted top or blouse my day is made. heck, I even haggle on craigslist when the price is already low. lol…yeah i guess im cheap haha. but at least id like to think im a well dressed cheap-o.

Of course sometimes i do splurge a little (dont we all?) The sunglasses were $50. and thats as much as im willing to spend on sunglasses lol.

and yes i know i need a tan haha…cant wait to get baked this summer! 😉

Learning To Age Gracefully

13 Apr

I just turned 27 recently, and with that I have to say…I FEEL OLD DAMMIT!

But its okay, I still love myself, and life goes on. I mean, hey, I’ll always be younger than someone riiight??

*sigh but I do see the difference in being 17 versus 27.

For one, my wardrobe is definitely different. I used to shop in the pre-teen section and buy cute tops and shorts in size XL. My style has always been my own, and 10 years ago I liked wearing alot of cute colorful stuff that they only made for pre-teens.

Here i was in Disneyland having some fun with the family — It was pretty hilarious to me when a Disney store employee looked me up and down and asked if I worked in the park.


and sometimes I even went as far as dressing like this (for church.) I know its a bit over the top, but I’ve always been in love with the way women dressed in the 50’s.


I would look ridiculous if I tried dressing like that now. I mean theres just some things a girl just cant wear anymore after a certain age—like bows. I used to LOVE wearing bows in my hair. Now I enjoy putting them on my baby girl.

And just yesterday, I was questioning whether or not Im too old to wear these floral combat boots I just bought at JCPenney. I think I can slide on this one maybe.

it just hit me recently that Im questioning what looks “age-appropriate” and I never did that before! proof that Im old now.

and as if that wasnt enough, my 14 year old brother thinks I was a youngster in the 70s! lol. we’ll be watching tv, and if anything from the 70’s or 80’s comes out, he’ll turn and ask, “So is that from your time?” and Im like, “WHAT! No! haha..I wasnt even born then! Im 90’s kid sheesh.” 😛

The other day my nefus were over, and they told my 14 year old brother that they dont feel right calling him ‘uncle’ because he looks more like a ‘cousin’ to them (theyre 7 and 9) so I turned to them and asked, “do I look like an ‘aunt’ to you guys?” they quickly shook their head yes. darn.

I also notice that alot of surveys have the 20-25 year range bullet hole and then the 25+. and Im just staring at the plus sign thinking, “Man im so old Im not even in an age bracket anymore. Im just a plus sign!!”  when did that happen??

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Thats me at 17. (I was in a photography class in high school and we took alot of black and whites for practice.)

Really though, Im at peace with getting older. I realize my teens, and early twenties are gone, but I still have vitality, energy and health. I still have time to accomplish so much out of life. I just wish I could go back and teach my younger self what I know now about guys. Id also teach my younger self the importance of saving and investing. the good thing is I will make sure to teach my daughter these things.

As for my new late-twenties style, I have to say Im adopting more of an angelina jolie look. She dresses in really simple clothes with an elegant flair to them. It just feels right to me. I also dont wear big accessories like I used to. diamond stud earrings and a small pendant necklace is all I need/ feel comfortable wearing.

Recently I brought in my bags of pre pregnancy clothes from the storage shed my parents have. I could not believe how much clothes I have! I kind of forgot…but bygolly its alot. Its kind of sad that I have more clothes than closet space. I used to dream of a walk in closet but now I dream of just living with the basics, and getting rid of any excess. So when my mom told me about my 15 year old girl cousin in Mexico who doesnt even have shoes to wear to school, or any nice new things my heart went out to her. “Do you think you have any clothes you dont want anymore?” My mom asked me.

“Yeah,” I said thinking about all the cute clothes that I dont have any more room for in my closet. Its not that I dont want them, but Ill sacrifice giving them to someone who I love and who I know will really appreciate them.

We both agreed that every 15 year old girl deserves to feel pretty since they’re at the peak of their youth.

My mom and I want to give my cousin some shoes, make-up, and bags of clothes, hats, and purses. I hope that’ll make her happy. Ooooh Im excited just thinking about it!

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